back n running

it has been a while. wrk life sucked th youth out of us w inconsistent slping hours n long wrking hrs. bt wad an experience. kinda miss my bartending n server days at hrc. making mojitos, sex on th beach n singapore sling. haha. as fir said, like a certain famous deaf musician, a non-drinker making nice drinks. hah. i probably had too much fun n contemplating on more bt im gettin bored w this lifestyle. mayb its time to choose. oh n evn our bro, afiq is attached. w pun intended. lol. KL rdtrip!!

a month later

im fine now ppl. gotten thru th shock phase n sceptic on certain aspects of life bt nonetheless, thanks guys n ladies fr being there or offering your priceless support. it’s comforting to know th friends i’ve made during th best part of my life are there thru thick n thin. cheering me up w their antics n outings. wrk definitely helped keeping my mind occupied n th cash rolling in. after last night, im officially back up n running w added responsibilities of course. life is full of shit. whose life isnt? hoping fr a clearer picture fr th picture though. damn..

ain’t life a funny thing

when i dn hav any woes or grievances to share, th choices are aplenty. n just when i’ve gt th biggest shock of my life, i’ve noone. zilch. sigh. hence here i am. how pathetic. im sorry ppl as i whine abt th miserable situation im in. nv hav i weeped tht much. nv wud i expected such a scenario happening to me. to my family. those happy moments we shared, laughing n joking ard. those days are gone now. those days are gone. haiz. forgive me if im nt gonna be th usual me during our outings ppl. i’ve to chg. i’ve to be older n wiser. i cant show my sadness nor my worries to my mom. i have to be strong. i have to be thr fr her n my sis. it’s just salt to injury tht i’ve noone to get me thru this. sigh. blame it on my indecisiveness. as of now, i need to do wad’s necessary. i hate 2009 thus far. embrace ur complete family ppl. u wont knw when it’l chg. haiz..

isolation

a few days of no tv, computer, radio, etc. basically cut off frm civilization on a farm far away frm Spore. rejuvenated. reinvented. n focused. bt at a price. freaking burnt. hah. oh well. it was fun shouting at ppl n being th one they turn to. i hope teaching isn that difficult. tmr will b th start of a regime i’ve planned. any1 who wans to b fit n lean or nothin to do? come join me ;) th curse of ord…

i’ve been driving on this road for too long.

road block

just like how sudden i stumbled upon th main road, i came across a freaking road block w obstacles beyond it. so i asked myself, shall i force my way thru th road block conducted by ppl whom i regarded as my close friends n manoeuvre my walk thru th obstacles or wait fr all tht to clear? n then it hit me. i’ve decided on neither. of cos thr was disappointment n sadness just like when a much anticipated ongoing roadtrip comes to an abrupt halt. u look so far ahead w/o realising tht u may nv reach ur destination. so what if th main road is blocked i said to myself. thr r many other side roads available fr me. though it may lead to some different main road, at least im on th move. of cos thr’s this linger of hope tht one of th side roads will lead back to th original path tht i was on bt tht aint happening anytime soon. so i’ve made a right turn into a side road w no knowledge of whr im gg. now thts a thrilling life. of cos, i’ve to make sure im a gd driver/rider so as to not hurt anyone along th way. i wudn’t wanna b th bad guy n b banned frm entering other side roads fr sins im not guilty of YET. haha. and so i wonder, is th right turn th right decision? maybe one or two turns won’t hurt. hmm